Thursday, Friday and Saturday..

Thursday I went to an hour of water aerobics and my calories were 1604.

Friday, I did 30 minutes on the treadmill (10 of that jogging), 45 minutes with my trainer Van and a 60 minute yoga class. I really liked it, and I can feel myself getting a little more flexible. Our crossfit workout with Van was 65 pound deadlifts 10, 9, 8, etc down to 1 and in between the deadlifts, we did rollouts, 1, 2, 3 up to 10. It was pretty cool, I really like lifting weights. Then we did 3 rounds of 12 deadlifts and 24 boxjumps. My calorie intake was more than I’d like at 1761.

Saturday, I just rested. Hung around and catched up on my shows on DVR. I did not eat as well as I should, and I was really, really disappointed in myself that I had some cake at a baby shower. I also had some dip and a few chips. I recorded my calories at 1829, but it could have very well been a bit more than that, I’m not sure.

I really hate that my old support group is gone. It was so motivating and helping me keep on track. I learned that some people actually want me to fail. That is just so disheartening to me. Who would want that for someone? I don’t understand. Its been a real trying week for me, and I am really trying to not drown my sorrows in food.

Today, I am about to go to the gym, do some treadmill and a spin class. I want to turn this around. I do not want to do what I always do and give up. I will not give up.

Quickie..

Since I didn’t write yesterday, I’ll post that I’m super emotional today.

Menu:

B: scrambled eggs w/ evoo; avocado salad: 1/2 avocado, onions, lemon juice, cherry tomatoes.

L: Leftover Haddock, roasted brussel sprouts w/ sauteed onions

D: 2 bananas, handful of cherry toms.

Calories for the day: approximately 958.. weight still 292.

Exercise: 30 minutes on the treadmill, about 10 minutes jogging at 4.3 or 4.5 at lunch, 40 minutes Spin.

Tuesday, otherwise known as rest day..

Ahhhhh. Rest today. I felt a little bit guilty about not working out today. I even left my workout clothes at home. But I reminded myself that I worked out super hard yesterday, and my normal rest day (Sunday), I worked out, as well.

Today was more stress. My ex-Stepmother keeps bothering me about my Father. I feel that she is pushing this with him. My Father has never kept track of me, my whole life. In fact, when I did try to escape the abuse I was going through, he ended up bringing me back to my hellhole. I feel so conflicted. Of course I want my Dad in my life, its all I’ve ever wanted.. but do I put myself back out there? So many people have disappointed me and let me down; and he’s done it time after time. Do I let my heart have hope? I’m scared that I do that, and end up being so hurt again..

So, my emotions are all over the place. Not to mention, I woke this morning, showing like a 2 pound gain. I was very upset.. I’ve worked so hard! But I won’t let it get me down. I assume the outback was very high sodium, and that tomorrow I’ll be down again.

Menu:

B: Banana

L: Roasted carrots and parsnips, baked flounder, .3 avocado (was all brown), and cherry tomatoes.

S: strawberries/raspberries

D: 4 oz baked haddock, roasted brussel sprouts, sauteed onions, handful of walnuts.

Calories ended at 918. Not sure why so low.. I don’t feel hungry or anything.. No exercise today: rest.

Sunday.. Monday..

Sunday: 

Was really tired this weekend. Sunday, I did go to a 60 minute spin class, it was very packed (Yay, new resolutions, LOL!). I ended up making the Oven Braised Beef Stew, but made it more of just a dish and didn’t make it into a stew. It was very yummy.

Menu:

B: Banana, 1/2 Peanut butter dream gym shake

L: The beef “stew” with sauteed leeks (pretty tasty)

D: 2 bananas with Peanut butter.

Calories were about 1415 for the day. I really need to stay away from the peanut butter. Weight stayed the same, 292.

Monday:

I went to bed pretty early on Sunday night (for me!) by 930pm. I woke up around 730. I knew I had a gym day planned.. I joined my workout partner, Sara, and we did 50 minutes on the treadmill (I mostly walked, my legs were very tired/worn out), 45 minutes with our trainer (we did 3 burpees, she did 5) then we had to do use the 12 pound dumbells and do as many high pulls from floor then thruster squats we could do, every minute on the minute. I could do about maybe 5 of the combo in between the burpees on the minute. It was hard. I probably did 50-55 of the combos, and Sara did 100! I was so tired.. Then we did some ab work.

After all of that, we went to a hot yoga class.

I had a dinner date with one of my good girlfriends that night to come over and meet her new puppy, and then her and I, plus Alex went to outback. I ordered my new favorite (6 oz sirloin with 3 shrimp, grilled asparagus and salad with no croutons, with vinegar and olive oil).

Menu:

B: Scrambled eggs pre-workout, 1/2 PB gym shake post

L: Starbucks tall caramel caramel macchiato (Not paleo or whole 30 approved)

D: Outback

S: banana/PB, 1/2 cup of pistacios.

Calories were about 1626 for the day. Weight was down 1/2 pound this morning, 291.5

 

A cold run..

This morning, we went to our running group in Solomon’s Island. It was around 25 degrees.  Probably the coldest I’ve run in, so far. Definitely was motivated to keep moving quick because when I was just walking, I was getting chilled. Brrr.

After that, we took Alex to TaeKwonDo, and then I headed to a 90 minute beginner’s yoga class. I’ve done yoga many times in the past, but have been way out of practice for quite awhile. I bought a new thick mat a few weeks ago from the studio, and it really makes a difference (http://www.jadeyoga.com). These mats are eco-friendly, made with natural rubber and they plant a tree when one is bought.

After yoga, I stopped off at the grocery store, so I could buy some food to make lunch/dinner. There are two recipes I wanted to try:

Dijon Sirloin 

Oven-Braised Beef Stew

I decided on making the Dijon Sirloin for our early dinner and it was fabulous. Subs I made: no heavy cream, since I’m in the Whole 30 challenge, and I threw a couple dashes of chicken stock into the pan, and added some kale. It was delicious. Tomorrow I will make the beef stew for dinner.

Today’s food:

B: banana, tall skinny caramel machiatto (no, not whole 30 approved.. )

L: The dijon sirloin, 2 bananas and a tablespoon of peanut butter.

D: Pistacios.

No, not much for dinner, but around 5:30pm, I ended up napping till 8. I just woke up, got on the computer, drank a bunch of water and had some nuts.. my little one crawled into bed and was watching the TV around 7 and he’s still sleeping.

Today’s calories: 1332

Tomorrow’s activity: cleaning house and spinning. No loss this morning.

Difficult day.. perseverance

Today was a particularly difficult day. I received some news that was sort of shocking, and disappointing about my ex-stepmother and father getting back together. For some reason, this just felt devastating to me.. Usually, people divorce someone for a reason.. and as they  say, an ex is an ex for a reason. Anyway, this shocked my emotions so much, I cried at work telling my husband on the phone and cause myself to get upset and end up with a splitting headache.

Old me would have ran to fast food or ran to the grocery store and downed a pint of Ben and Jerry’s..

However, Sara (my workout partner) and I had a date for the gym.. so while she ran, I walked/jogged (mostly walked) for 30 minutes and then we had our training session with Van. Afterwards, I did another 30 minutes on the treadmill, 5 minute warm back up, 20 minutes alternating walking and jogging and 5 minutes cool down. My pace on my jogs now are either 4.3 or 4.5, mostly 4.5.

Van’s workout today was Dumbell Complex.

6 reps each x 2 x 2 sets at 10 lbs dumbell.

6 reps each x 2 x 1 set at 12 lbs dumbell

8 reps each x 1 x 1 set at 12 lbs dumbell.

Next time, I will do the workout per the picture. He said this would be a great workout for being on travel also.

High pulls from floor: squat and touch dumbell to floor, stand up and lift dumbell to top of chest.

Rows: stand, back parallel to floor, extend arms down and bring arms up, thumbs to armits

Curls: regular bicep curls.

Thrusters: squat, bring dumbells down past knees, stand up and extend arms up over head, keep back straight.

Overhead squats: Keep arms extended in the air, then air squat.

Manmakers: Keep dumbell in hands, do a plank, then pushup, bring one arm up to armpit, pushup, bring other arm up to armpit. (1 is considered a pushup and one side).

We were to go to dinner with my Mom to Outback, where we picked healthy choices. I felt great with the choices I made today and did not let my emotions totally take over and destroy my diet/exercise and I feel VERY proud of that.

Menu:

• B: Scrambled Eggs
• S: .3 Florida Avocado, 5 cherry tomatoes.
• L: 1.5 chicken breast, 1/2 cup butternut squash
• S: cup of strawberries
• D: Outback: 6 oz sirloin, 3 grilled shrimp. Salad, no croutons, vinegar and oil, grilled asparagus.

Today’s calories: 1572

Rest day..

I have decided to begin a new blog focused on weight loss and my life.

My big goals this year:

• 1) Lose 80 pounds, 6.6 pounds a month
• 2) Run a couple 5k’s and at least one 10k.
• 3) Register for a the Disney Princess half marathon for February 2013.

My smaller, short term goals:

• 1) Lose 19 pounds by 2/14.
• 2) Be smaller and fit easier in my plane seat for our vacation in March!
• 3) Stick to my eating plan
• 4) 45-60 minutes of exercise 5-6 days a week.
• 5) Stick to running plan.

I wanted to try this recipe: Crispy Chicken.. However, since I didn’t have a sous vide or did the prep, I just took the chicken drumsticks, put some coriander, cumin, black pepper, sea salt and turmeric, pan browned them in coconut oil, then baked in the oven for 25ish minutes.

It was delicious!

Menu today:

• B: scrambled eggs
• L: leftover 5oz sirloin, butternut squash, broccoli and roasted carrots
• S: .3 florida avocado and cherry tomatoes, strawberries and mango
• D: 2 chicken legs, broccoli and walnuts.

Today’s calories: 1353 and rest day.