January results

My final tally for January is……. 14.5 pounds down! 284.5.

I was SO happy and excited this morning. This 30 day challenge has just been awesome. I’ve been discovering so much about myself and my eating habits.. I can slowly see my relationship with food changing. Isn’t of just having a “fuckitall” attitude, and I’ll just start tomorrow, every single piece of food I put in my mouth, I’m thinking about it.

I really think that by cutting the sugar, my brain is able to actually THINK about things before I just stuff it into my mouth.. That is exactly how I’d react in the past.. It was like, Oh, there are cupcakes at the front desk, and all I would think about were those cupcakes sitting at the front desk. I’d feel compelled to just have one. Sometimes, I’d sit here and think, if I just wait 30 minutes they will be gone.. or think about how dirty some people are.. and sometimes that would help, but usually, I’d just have one because I “wanted it so bad”, and there is always tomorrow!

I am so thankful for the 30 day whole 9 group.. Its so encouraging to have all these people who are like minded and doing the same healthy activities and healthy eating..

Anyway, I am trying to remember to post my daily activity/weight and calorie intake, but I keep forgetting!


Reaching Goals.. (Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday)

First of all, I was very happy this morning when I weighed in to be 9 pounds down: 290.  I listened to the people on my 30 day challenge group, and decided bananas had to go. I’ve been eating 1-3 a day.. and they just have too much sugar.

My goal for January was 6.6 pounds, and I’m down 9. Still have 5 more days to go.

Been reading a good article, and keeping it in the back of my mind: http://jackkruse.com/my-leptin-prescription/

Tuesday, my calories were 1502 and I did 30 minutes on the treadmill

Wednesday, my calories were 1595 and I did 2 45 minute spin classes (1 at lunch, 1 at 630).

I ended the day at 1502 and went to an hour of water aerobics.

Tomorrow, Sara and I will see Van, and then I’m going to happy hour yoga!

Clothes are feeling loose!

Sunday and Monday..


Well, after my little fiasco at the baby shower, I was up FOUR pounds Sunday morning. ARGH. I cannot handle grains or wheat at ALL. I ended up going to a 60 minute spin class and walked for about 10 minutes afterward. I ended the day at 1546 calories consumed.




I was back down a pound, so only 3 pounds gained since Saturday. It just is not worth it for me to cheat. Anyway, feeling pretty great today.. Did 20 minutes on the arc trainer (level 5) and 5 minutes of rowing at lunch, then 60 minute spin after work (20 miles). Ended at 1440 calories today.

Made a delicious dinner of ribeye, roasted carrots, sauteed brussel sprouts, mushrooms and onions and a little avocado salad. Yum.


Thursday, Friday and Saturday..

Thursday I went to an hour of water aerobics and my calories were 1604.

Friday, I did 30 minutes on the treadmill (10 of that jogging), 45 minutes with my trainer Van and a 60 minute yoga class. I really liked it, and I can feel myself getting a little more flexible. Our crossfit workout with Van was 65 pound deadlifts 10, 9, 8, etc down to 1 and in between the deadlifts, we did rollouts, 1, 2, 3 up to 10. It was pretty cool, I really like lifting weights. Then we did 3 rounds of 12 deadlifts and 24 boxjumps. My calorie intake was more than I’d like at 1761.

Saturday, I just rested. Hung around and catched up on my shows on DVR. I did not eat as well as I should, and I was really, really disappointed in myself that I had some cake at a baby shower. I also had some dip and a few chips. I recorded my calories at 1829, but it could have very well been a bit more than that, I’m not sure.

I really hate that my old support group is gone. It was so motivating and helping me keep on track. I learned that some people actually want me to fail. That is just so disheartening to me. Who would want that for someone? I don’t understand. Its been a real trying week for me, and I am really trying to not drown my sorrows in food.

Today, I am about to go to the gym, do some treadmill and a spin class. I want to turn this around. I do not want to do what I always do and give up. I will not give up.


Since I didn’t write yesterday, I’ll post that I’m super emotional today.


B: scrambled eggs w/ evoo; avocado salad: 1/2 avocado, onions, lemon juice, cherry tomatoes.

L: Leftover Haddock, roasted brussel sprouts w/ sauteed onions

D: 2 bananas, handful of cherry toms.

Calories for the day: approximately 958.. weight still 292.

Exercise: 30 minutes on the treadmill, about 10 minutes jogging at 4.3 or 4.5 at lunch, 40 minutes Spin.

Tuesday, otherwise known as rest day..

Ahhhhh. Rest today. I felt a little bit guilty about not working out today. I even left my workout clothes at home. But I reminded myself that I worked out super hard yesterday, and my normal rest day (Sunday), I worked out, as well.

Today was more stress. My ex-Stepmother keeps bothering me about my Father. I feel that she is pushing this with him. My Father has never kept track of me, my whole life. In fact, when I did try to escape the abuse I was going through, he ended up bringing me back to my hellhole. I feel so conflicted. Of course I want my Dad in my life, its all I’ve ever wanted.. but do I put myself back out there? So many people have disappointed me and let me down; and he’s done it time after time. Do I let my heart have hope? I’m scared that I do that, and end up being so hurt again..

So, my emotions are all over the place. Not to mention, I woke this morning, showing like a 2 pound gain. I was very upset.. I’ve worked so hard! But I won’t let it get me down. I assume the outback was very high sodium, and that tomorrow I’ll be down again.


B: Banana

L: Roasted carrots and parsnips, baked flounder, .3 avocado (was all brown), and cherry tomatoes.

S: strawberries/raspberries

D: 4 oz baked haddock, roasted brussel sprouts, sauteed onions, handful of walnuts.

Calories ended at 918. Not sure why so low.. I don’t feel hungry or anything.. No exercise today: rest.

Sunday.. Monday..


Was really tired this weekend. Sunday, I did go to a 60 minute spin class, it was very packed (Yay, new resolutions, LOL!). I ended up making the Oven Braised Beef Stew, but made it more of just a dish and didn’t make it into a stew. It was very yummy.


B: Banana, 1/2 Peanut butter dream gym shake

L: The beef “stew” with sauteed leeks (pretty tasty)

D: 2 bananas with Peanut butter.

Calories were about 1415 for the day. I really need to stay away from the peanut butter. Weight stayed the same, 292.


I went to bed pretty early on Sunday night (for me!) by 930pm. I woke up around 730. I knew I had a gym day planned.. I joined my workout partner, Sara, and we did 50 minutes on the treadmill (I mostly walked, my legs were very tired/worn out), 45 minutes with our trainer (we did 3 burpees, she did 5) then we had to do use the 12 pound dumbells and do as many high pulls from floor then thruster squats we could do, every minute on the minute. I could do about maybe 5 of the combo in between the burpees on the minute. It was hard. I probably did 50-55 of the combos, and Sara did 100! I was so tired.. Then we did some ab work.

After all of that, we went to a hot yoga class.

I had a dinner date with one of my good girlfriends that night to come over and meet her new puppy, and then her and I, plus Alex went to outback. I ordered my new favorite (6 oz sirloin with 3 shrimp, grilled asparagus and salad with no croutons, with vinegar and olive oil).


B: Scrambled eggs pre-workout, 1/2 PB gym shake post

L: Starbucks tall caramel caramel macchiato (Not paleo or whole 30 approved)

D: Outback

S: banana/PB, 1/2 cup of pistacios.

Calories were about 1626 for the day. Weight was down 1/2 pound this morning, 291.5